So Form 5 students are required to take SPM so that they can apply for higher studies and all those crap,Add Maths a pain and Accounts a bitch (sorry for the language cant find a better word) , Well At least LCCI recognizes SPM Accounts … Whats worst , take the SPM Cert with The Perfect 10A+ and apply to study in a foreign College … The first thing they ask will be WHAT IN THE FREAKIN WORLD IS SPM? i actually conversed with a friend in Australia and i told him about SPM , He said is SPM a Citizenship Test? I thought that you are already a citizen in Malaysia ? …. WADE !!!!! , Not that i hate malaysia but seriously which country other THAN malaysia Recognizes SPM? The Economics of Malaysia is not bad, Its peaceful , Full of Natural resources that aids and runs the country .In fact, this country has alot more factors that continue to aid in the development yet the Education System in Malaysia is Sticking OUT like a Sore Thumb … I have no problem in living with Malays ( Why malays ? well chinese are well known to hate them but still u get the picture ).Are only Malays involved in ‘lepak’ or ‘rempit’ ?some Chinese and Indians are too . It is the human factor that fuels their behavior not their skin color… I have a few friends that are Malay and i enjoy talking to them ? There is no such thing as sensitive issues as long as you keep an open mind and accept the modernization and keep track of traditions … SPM has Moral too … May i ask ? Why Moral? I can score a perfect 100 and still rob someone? If its practical I have no arguments but seriously theory and it’s like History? Most of them, Just Suck It Up and Bear with it … Well not me, and im Proud to say that i flunked my Moral for 1 and a half years !! (THUMBS UP) But, For my seemingly ‘bright’ future i have to ace my SPM which seems like a very hard (almost impossible) goal …. Even if i flunk this , i might become a Professional Janitor which can sweep 100metres with a broom with just one swipe , or get fake boobs and go to Thailand , I heard they have a Good business there .. haha , that it ( thanks for reading my whining)

I got my P-license about a month ago.

Too bad, I don’t have a car to drive around in. I’m only relying on my mum’s car right now, which is an old Proton, probably three quarters my age.

Gods. >.>

I hate driving manual so damn much. I hate that car, too.

Ugh.

Today is the final day of me to online in this week, because after college time I am  going to Trinity methodist church and get ready for BNTS.

My heart is heavy to attend it, because I felt and heard that the training is tough for me this old man who didn’t attend such terrible and hell-like training

Recently, my captain just advised me to put some extra effort to my company. Guess what he said:’ There’s one more thing(previously we are discussing about another thing), now you are a corporal, so if I wanna promote you to be a Sergeant, you have to put extra effort on company.’

Meaning that what I doing now is actually what I should and have to do as a role of Corporal, in order to get promoted, =) I have to do something more, like following up my members situation, knowing them, updating Company website. And he said our company is going into school, so before going in, we must have a good connection and communication among all of us.(say until here, that is a good news, soon there will be a news from school to let 1st Serdang Coy to start)

The process of being a sergeant from a corporal is not as easy as growing up, like a caterpillar to a butterfly, need alot of hardship and effort. When I heard this, I felt encouraged, so I have the potential to get promoted? (even though he said ‘let’s say I wanna promote u’). Well, after this, I gave myself half year time, I wish and hope that I can get promoted before this year end, I will fight for it no matter what.(meaning that whoever block me will die? hhahaa XD)

I can say that I am very grateful to have this captain, because he is a caring captain to me, every member in his eyes are precious. Maybe some members cannot feel it or take it for granted, but I can feel it, through his action towards us.

Another thing, I don’t know should I be happy or fear, there will be 2 more days I will be attending BNTS, which I am going to a ‘hell-like’ training which I didn’t face it for many years, feeling like I cannot last in it because my stamina is not as good as normal people.(so old already still BNTS). I am really afraid of the training, even I haven’t enter it.

After coming from hell, I am going to paradise, which is my dearest 2nd Manjung Company place for anniversary dinner, but it is more like I am going to travel in Sitiawan. Haha~~ I hope we can fellowship much more in these 5 days.

So, 2 days to BNTS(hell), 7 days to Sitiawan(paradise), my emotion is going to break 1 day XD!!!!

I think that my class has students who are mostly problematic. Either because of being in 5S3 do we have all sorts of troubles, or we have all sorts of troubles and thus belong in 5S3, I can’t be sure. I can only be certain of the fact that many of us face different kinds of bullsh*t in life – family issues, personal problems, relationship difficulties and so on.

5S3 isn’t the best of classes. We may be in the pure sciences stream, but we are the last class there. None of us are particularly excellent at studies, whether due to lack of interest, laziness or just plain averageness. The few things the students here excel at are sports, co-curricular activities and bugging the hell out of teachers.

Nobody thinks we’re worth very much – they don’t expect us to be somebody brilliant in life. Teachers come in and look at us weird. We don’t get many chances to do stuff or be involved in things; people have the mindset that if you’re not from the first or second class, you’re hopeless and undependable. And maybe it is because of these instances that we are who we make ourselves out to be today. Maybe it is because of the constant segregation and being looked-down-upon, that we have molded ourselves to the expectations of society for people of our ranks. Maybe we’re irritating, annoying, noisy, loud, rude and lazy, because everyone expects us to be like that. Just because we’re in the third class.

But so what if we’re stupid? So what if we’re not destined to get full A’s in our exams? So what if we’re a different type of people from those overachievers who’re st the top? Because we have something so much more valuable than mere exam-oriented-education. We have something better than a pretty school-leaving certificate. We have the true values, unbeatable edge and the head-above-everyone social skills of those who have ever had true friends.

There’s hardly a competitive spirit in my class, or the constant I-must-be-better-than-everyone-else feeling. We’re mostly acceptable of who we are and what we can do. We are confident in our abilities and loyal in our friendships. We laugh long and live life, not caring about anything but the present. The devil-may-care attitude might be frowned-upon by many, but at least the atmosphere in the class is always that of a relaxed environment instead of one which keeps pressing down on its students.

People may say that unless we work harder, we’re never gonna get anywhere in life. But each and every one of us have dreams and visions for ourselves, as well as our own identities. We support each other through thick and thin, and are not just robots who study all day for good exam results. We may not have the academic intelligence to match the top kids, but our intelligence is that of a different kind – one that will enable us to get through life. And that is way more important.

Am I too over for it? just a simple invitation, I have to go to Perak, a place where far away from my home alone to attend, and stay there for 5 days,  is this acceptable? I felt myself crazy and insane, doing something people never do. Can anyone tell me, am I making a right choice, am I doing a right thing? am I doing something crazy in your eyes? Is it wrong to travel so far away to see my friends? I felt myself too over and crazy in this, cause no one ever do that, felt unnecessary.

These days, I found myself worrying too much, I have no idea on it. I am a person who doesn’t have confident in doing anything, this is a big mistake and a big stronghold for me to gain success. Low confidential lead me to worrying this and worrying that.

Sometimes I felt myself worrying too much until I am tired of it. At first I worried that my parents won’t sponsor me for BNTS fees, God blessed that my father gave me the actual amount. This is the first ;The second thing, I worrying that my captain will scold or not allow me to go to Sitiawan for the anniversary dinner cause I will be back on Sunday which will miss the parade. I havent tell my Captain, he is ok for me to pay a visit, and he knows that I really miss my friends and want to see them in advance, I am quite impressed for his understanding.

I have no courage to tell him, well quite afraid….

Recently, I don’t know since when I started to let all those people who think they are right talk whatever they like. I started to be transformed to be a person who don’t like to explain, not explain too much, is totally not to explain, I will just explain to people who listen, but there is no one I know until now.

I fed up of saying and defending myself especially from family, so in everywhere I will just be a childish man who act like don’t know everything and play and fool around. People might think I am childish but this is me.

Honestly, I am enough of talking too much of principle, since no one listening and everyone think that what they see, listen, say, do, smell is right, then what’s the point? We keep on defending ourselves from each other, there will be no end.

The feeling is just like you accumulate all

••●FREEDOM●••

Oooo yeah, baby!

SPM trials are over for a_teong and [rin]!

Finally, take a deep breath!

Or not. Whatever.

So I got bored of seeing authorless posts, and set out to do something about it. Not that this will guarantee the two guys will use it, but eh, at least I made an effort.

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