I think that my class has students who are mostly problematic. Either because of being in 5S3 do we have all sorts of troubles, or we have all sorts of troubles and thus belong in 5S3, I can’t be sure. I can only be certain of the fact that many of us face different kinds of bullsh*t in life – family issues, personal problems, relationship difficulties and so on.

5S3 isn’t the best of classes. We may be in the pure sciences stream, but we are the last class there. None of us are particularly excellent at studies, whether due to lack of interest, laziness or just plain averageness. The few things the students here excel at are sports, co-curricular activities and bugging the hell out of teachers.

Nobody thinks we’re worth very much – they don’t expect us to be somebody brilliant in life. Teachers come in and look at us weird. We don’t get many chances to do stuff or be involved in things; people have the mindset that if you’re not from the first or second class, you’re hopeless and undependable. And maybe it is because of these instances that we are who we make ourselves out to be today. Maybe it is because of the constant segregation and being looked-down-upon, that we have molded ourselves to the expectations of society for people of our ranks. Maybe we’re irritating, annoying, noisy, loud, rude and lazy, because everyone expects us to be like that. Just because we’re in the third class.

But so what if we’re stupid? So what if we’re not destined to get full A’s in our exams? So what if we’re a different type of people from those overachievers who’re st the top? Because we have something so much more valuable than mere exam-oriented-education. We have something better than a pretty school-leaving certificate. We have the true values, unbeatable edge and the head-above-everyone social skills of those who have ever had true friends.

There’s hardly a competitive spirit in my class, or the constant I-must-be-better-than-everyone-else feeling. We’re mostly acceptable of who we are and what we can do. We are confident in our abilities and loyal in our friendships. We laugh long and live life, not caring about anything but the present. The devil-may-care attitude might be frowned-upon by many, but at least the atmosphere in the class is always that of a relaxed environment instead of one which keeps pressing down on its students.

People may say that unless we work harder, we’re never gonna get anywhere in life. But each and every one of us have dreams and visions for ourselves, as well as our own identities. We support each other through thick and thin, and are not just robots who study all day for good exam results. We may not have the academic intelligence to match the top kids, but our intelligence is that of a different kind – one that will enable us to get through life. And that is way more important.

Am I too over for it? just a simple invitation, I have to go to Perak, a place where far away from my home alone to attend, and stay there for 5 days,  is this acceptable? I felt myself crazy and insane, doing something people never do. Can anyone tell me, am I making a right choice, am I doing a right thing? am I doing something crazy in your eyes? Is it wrong to travel so far away to see my friends? I felt myself too over and crazy in this, cause no one ever do that, felt unnecessary.

These days, I found myself worrying too much, I have no idea on it. I am a person who doesn’t have confident in doing anything, this is a big mistake and a big stronghold for me to gain success. Low confidential lead me to worrying this and worrying that.

Sometimes I felt myself worrying too much until I am tired of it. At first I worried that my parents won’t sponsor me for BNTS fees, God blessed that my father gave me the actual amount. This is the first ;The second thing, I worrying that my captain will scold or not allow me to go to Sitiawan for the anniversary dinner cause I will be back on Sunday which will miss the parade. I havent tell my Captain, he is ok for me to pay a visit, and he knows that I really miss my friends and want to see them in advance, I am quite impressed for his understanding.

I have no courage to tell him, well quite afraid….

Recently, I don’t know since when I started to let all those people who think they are right talk whatever they like. I started to be transformed to be a person who don’t like to explain, not explain too much, is totally not to explain, I will just explain to people who listen, but there is no one I know until now.

I fed up of saying and defending myself especially from family, so in everywhere I will just be a childish man who act like don’t know everything and play and fool around. People might think I am childish but this is me.

Honestly, I am enough of talking too much of principle, since no one listening and everyone think that what they see, listen, say, do, smell is right, then what’s the point? We keep on defending ourselves from each other, there will be no end.

The feeling is just like you accumulate all

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Oooo yeah, baby!

SPM trials are over for a_teong and [rin]!

Finally, take a deep breath!

Or not. Whatever.

So I got bored of seeing authorless posts, and set out to do something about it. Not that this will guarantee the two guys will use it, but eh, at least I made an effort.

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Something deep down in my heart that I just can’t show out to public and to the my favourite book – facebook. After 1 week of open college days, our college seems to have some society. At least it started to have since it is growing, but unluckily I am a busy man, including BB serving and church serving, my time is already pack for the future.

Maybe in other people’s eyes I am a happy-go-lucky person who always smiles everyday, even though I am worrying but I still put a smiley face to the public, well, this is me. But how many people realise that actually I am struggling with some stuffs in my life. Well yea! maybe some so call ‘wise man’ will said: everyone has his/her own problem. Ya ya you are right! don’t be so annoying ok?

Headache… because I am quite active in BB, so some church service I didn’t give it a notice, this make some brothers and sisters got some unhealthy thinking towards me, I was like very innocent, can you just let me go. Guys, try to imagine I am just a man, and BB needs me;Church Dance ministry needs me; Church Multimedia Team needs me; Drama team needs me; Praise and worship team spying on me;Holy Communion Team needs me. And if I don’t follow them, I will get persecuted, and everyone is actually == on me. I was like: Unless you split me like Multiman, or else, I can’t do it.

I felt very innocent and frustrated, not that I don’t wanna serve with my great talent, but right now, there is too much for me. I wish I can choose and let go, is that my fault? of not serving all those ministries that I served before? Beside, I still have my student life going…

For The Form 5 we still have 1 more week to go … and all that week particular is all the horrible subjects including Add Maths !! TT so wish us luck!!

It’s actually a lappie wallie. Fits 1280 x 800.

Because I’ve got nothing better to do with my time.

And Houey doesn’t wanna gimme the 3 Gossip Girl series until after trials, so I can’t watch it.

D:

Finally it comes to my favourite subject- Digital Video Editing, this is the first step that I step into Multimedia. Well, as usual, first class no class, just introduction. not longer than 30 minutes (not even 10 minutes), we finished the class. Because our lecturer is too busy to set the network around our new campus

Basically, I like this semester, because it require us to apply our characteristic and lifestyle into the project, like typography, we are going to edit our own signature, a signature designed by our own and just for us; Computer Graphics II, going to learn Adobe Photoshop, which almost everyone who is computer expert know how to use, you may know how to use, but the point is, do you know how to use Adobe Photoshop in the right way? or I ask, in design way? Many people know the technique of Adobe software, but not many people know how to design by using adobe software ;Concept Development, I still don’t know what it is, it is some kind of methodology study @.@. I enjoy this except Visual Drawing Class, not that I don’t like drawing, but the lecturer treat us the way too strict, was like fainted. but never mind, my endurance is more than enough XD

I am aiming for higher GPA for this semester, although is ok for last semester, but still in satisfaction onli